Shit 30s are hitting hard

 So I don’t know when I turned into this person.. I mean this 32 year old girl.. I’m still a girl right?

 I feel old yet clueless more clueless than ever.. I  wish I can enjoy this feeling of  confidence as I grow old but .. it seems to allude me to..

I hate my way of thinking .. think+ king ? Well I think like scared cat..

I am anxious 

I am scared 

And mostly I’m afraid of????

Well everything and everyone .. I’m a scared of people, situations , things, life in general 

One of my close friend said if living is this hard might as well die .. well I do not wish to die..  

so how to tackle anxiety?

I am going to train my brain into thinking differently. It how?

I tried therapy and it’s very expensive..

And it couldn’t help me

I realised I need to be my own therapist….

I’m going to watch two three new 3rd molar videos for now I’ll report back later